my feelings are at war noe

she is hurt again...


but what can i do?

if i tok to her....
will she think i concern too much...
will it irritates her....

m i such a hamster?
i really haf no courage to "sayang" her anymore...


what if i nv do anything...

i feel so sad.....
feel so inferior that i cant reach out to her like how i use to...
it feel so near...yet so far...
its like ther is a piece of glass in between us...


i guess she still pissed abt what i sms her ba...
hmmm........
i freaking hate saying all this.....
but then...
i need to try to agitate her.....
its didnt haf any effect...
more likely....it affected our friendship.

i guess its all about respect...

how do i earn hers?
have been thinking this for so long....

since after the 1st break up...
nth came to my mind...
nth....

what my instinct says...

hhmmm..i cant feel it...

not as strong any more...

but from her blog entry...
yup....guess this will be her last BF...
i jus could feel it coming..


like ther is someon asking mi to calm dwn...
dun worry about her anymore...
cos ther is someone ther for her....
someone that can change her...
someone she love deeply....

hope she will be happily ever after...



yeah...for mi...
i make sure i dun lead my partner's life...
if u nv grow....u will nv maintain the relationship...

love will jus fade......

dance like a girl....i m nt saying dress like one....
liek what my instructor say...
if u are a girl...u cant dance liek one...equal to failure.


work...
wish that Steffeni's hd is ok...
i relaly wanna bring up v1da ..

but i feel...
nth i feel...nth is goin well...