i saw The "L" word.

and I miss you again.




Why now?



why wouldn't the past let go of me?





why am i still caring for you?




in the 1st place..
i don't even know how to care for you...
cause i even wher are you


wat you are up to

how are you doin?



ahh............


fucking headaches....


its killing me..

Wherr are you?

I can't see...

i can't touch..

i can't hear...

i can't feel....


all senses activated. but not a single signal came back.


cause there is a thick wall of bricks in between us now






back then...

its just a thin pieces of glass..

where i could still see you.




but now..




i can't do anything anymore.

yet.











I still love you.

I didn't talk to you on msn anymore..


coz.....
















i think the one beside you is childish.

maybe i shouldn;t know that much

words of mouth...


i know things hasn't been good.




don't make me steal her just to make you treasure her more

how do i feel now?

so empty...

the traffic light here is always red.
nth is moving.

everyday.
i remind myself to be stronger.
to improve myself.

my personality....

my dance...

and my boring outer shell.



in the end.

the freaking reason is "because of you"



I miss everything about you.

my heart had already settled for you but why did you leave again.

i do crashed but then no one can be compare to you.



How much i hated ur attitude....

how much both you and i hurt each other...

we slapped each other...

we throw punches at each other...

we leave scratches on each other...


but why do i still love you so much?


but then...

the thoughts of your boy always motivate me to work harder..

to become a better person....

forcing myself to face watever shit tat is infront of me.

just becos i wanna make myself grow.



am...

i...

goin the rite way?



do i need to prove someone tat i can be better then a man cause of the past?

or i just have to become one of ur hi bye friends?

will you do anything for mi anymore?

will you buy my story if i tell you tat the past really a misunderstanding?

will you believe me if i tell you i have grown?




at this moment of time, i m really fuck up!
i lost someone.



but no matter where you are. i will be behind you to cushion ur fall.

rite now. i will jus leave you alone. =)

take care.