Changes

things are getting better...

meaning...it will be more stressful....


- v1da has more jobs

- i get to cheoro my showcase with min min

- my religion HipHop club invite mi to join them

- get to dance girly stuff. Well need to be open minded rite?

- closer to friends now. I love them!

- i slim dwn and yet to have abs. Since when am i so pretty conscious?

- spend more time with my family

- more confidence now



things that didn't change


- I am still caring for her, like a tiny guardian angel that hides in any corner and peep at her. Why am i doing this to myself?

- I still think of you. I hadn't love you enough yet.

- I still did not have the motivation to wake up early to run.

- I still can't survive without long slps!

- I still look at non ah lian pretty girls. =)

- I still like to zi high freestyling in the toilet. Sing like nobody business in the bathroom.




on the journey home...

i thought to myself...

what if one day i wanna win you back and make you fall for mi again....will it happen?

a voice answered it...

"yes!....you can win her back...you can make her fall for you again."

Don't ask mi why is there a sudden burst of confidence.

I don't know where it came from.


I ain't asking you back.

Not anymore.

I won't beg, I won't force, I won't ask, I won't say.

I just wanna reach out for you.

Standing there...

days after days, years after years.

till you are ready to grab my hand.



I am wrong again.

Thought things would be better after i stop having any contact with you.

but, I care for you more.

I am always looking at the wide opened door. Hoping you might appear standing there,


smiling at me
crying for me
rush in to hug me

saying you miss me
saying you need me
saying you feel comfortable hugging me


hmmm....


jus....forget about it ya?








why am i still loving you so much?